First of all, beloved friends and family please have a look HERE
as there are all the ideas you could possibly need... especially in THIS POST...
I don't normally do stash posts. This is a bit different though. This is a good one. This is one pile of awesome I do not and will not feel even remotely guilty about purchasing. This one I really deserve, I've worked hard for it!
I've been a bit low of late. The not smoking is TOUGH. One thing I hadn't considered was the effect it would have on my sewing. I thought not smoking would be great for my sewing, that I'd get a lot more done! I guess I forgot that I take so many breaks primarily because of the Narcolepsy, not specifically because I wanted to smoke.
I cant "do" sitting and concentrating on something for ages. I need to get up, go somewhere else, have a rest, a cuppa or a quick nap. So when I'm sewing, I start to feel I need a nap. I've got to really, its no use "powering through it" or whatever nonsense you want to call it. After all. I am not working BECAUSE it's been proven I am incapable of ignoring it, I need breaks, sometimes I hardly manage anything, its all break! Annoyingly I still fall asleep / go auto even when I do take naps.... but at least with breaks I make slightly less mistakes... Previously, every time I took a break, I went downstairs or outside and had a cigarette. Now, I take a break, and... well, I just don't know what to do with myself at all.
I make a cuppa. I want to smoke. I sit and put the telly on. I want to smoke. Eventually this turns into "I want to eat" or "I want to sleep". Unfortunately, perversely, I cant actually sleep ON PURPOSE. Really I don't know whats worse. Groggy confused out of it Sarah that's falling asleep far too much, or miserable Sarah that cant stop thinking about the extra calories and hating herself for not sticking to the diet... So its been really hard to go to the sewing cupboard and face that. Anyway. All of this has been translating to very little sewing being done. Just lots of thinking about it. Dreaming about it. Planning it.
I've gotten myself into a little bit of a hole with regards to the sewing I had planned, versus the sewing I've gotten done.... in relation to when its supposed to be finished.... Oops. My man is off to sea again this weekend, so instead of the customary two or three days crying and feeling sorry for myself I'm going to get stuck in, use the bed next to the sewing cupboard, and not do anything other than sew and sleep!
I am determined. I have things to finish!
Which brings me back to the stash purchase awesomeness.
12 weeks not smoking. Less 4 weeks buying nicotine replacement, equals 8 weeks.
8 x £7 for baccy
3 x £3 for cigarette papers
8 x £0.90 for the coffee I'd buy at the newsagents when I bought my baccy
2 x £5 approximately for the occasional magazine I'd buy with my coffee and baccy
Which this time, not always, but for the moment, equals
|from one addiction to another....|
|merry Christmas (2010) to me...|
Although having seen Meg's winter survival guide I might just have to spend a day or so doing one or two of these first :-)