Wish I was a weeble

I've been thinking a lot about the Fat Quarterly Retreat.  Naturally I'm getting excited about it, as I believe most of us Brit Bee's are, however I have also been thinking about me, and my oh so freakin boring "condition"...  These days, I don't do a great deal of letting loose and having a laugh - I tend to try and keep myself a little distanced.  Its not that I don't want to have a laugh, I just don't want to fall over...  My cataplexy seems pretty firmly rooted these days, and a laugh, or being cheeky, (or the other end of the scale and getting upset or annoyed) causes anything from losing my vision, my facial muscles slackening (making me look a right twat) to the whole collapse in a heap fall over.  I really don't want to be doin ANY of that at the FQ retreat.  But I DO want to have a good laugh there, and I am rather cheeky - some of you know too well - so I'd like to be able to be myself.

Years ago when I was going through the motions of trying every single medication available to me I did try something that helped with the Cataplexy.  From what I remembered, I took this pill and for the first week or so my narcolepsy would go a bit mental, but then it would calm down, back to normal, but without the Cataplexy.  Now I'd stopped taking it because after 6 months or so of continually upping the dosage it just wasn't having much effect any more.   However, FQ retreat is 3 months away...
On Friday I went to the docs and got the meds.

On Saturday afternoon I started to feel a bit queasy, and I couldn't really face eating anything other than a bit of toast.  Saturday evening, I started to get hot flushes...  My temperature rocketed and I still felt queasy, so I went to bed.
Sunday morning I woke up feeling terrible.  I was sick, I had a nasty trip to the toilet..  Then I looked in the mirror, and I had the freakiest eyes...  Massive, enormous black pupils.  I shut my eyes and opened them again.  Still massive.  I shone a light in my eyes.  Still massive.  Hardly any Iris at all, it looked so creepy.
I took my freaky dilated pupils and curled up on the sofa under a quilt for the day.
All day and night I would get waves of nausea, I couldnt eat, pins and needles all over my body, random uncontrollable shaking.  I kept yawning all the time, yawning like I was trying to split my head open Muppet style...
Monday was just the same, and not having eaten I was really feeble and shaky too.  My heart would suddenly start racing.  My head was hurting.  I gave in and called the doc.  Every last thing I was feeling was just a "common" side effect for the Cataplexy pills.  Common or not, the doc said I should stop immediately.  As much as I wanted to get rid of the cataplexy for my trip away, I had to agree, I couldn't cope with all that.

Its now 48 hrs since I took the pills and I'm starting to feel much better.  Cant help but feel a bit gutted though, my stand by "I can always take the cataplexy pills again" is no more.  I'm always going wobble and nothings going to stop me falling over...  Sucks.

So that was my weekend.   Fortunately I had time on Friday to make this....

Natural Linen with rainbow scraps band and hand stitching.  Approx 10 x 11", wide flat bottom, pocket inside.

And time this evening to make this...

Grey Linen with rainbow scrappy blocks and rainbow band, 9" square approx, shallow bottom, divider section inside. 

One of which will go to my partner in the Mouthy Stitches Zippy pouch swap.
Now to get caught up with my For the Love of Solids swap.....  oh help!!


ps  If anyone gets muddled up with their bits for the Stained QAL blocks, I've uploaded another "helpful diagram" with each block and the sizes of  its component parts.   Click here to go to it.